Saturday My Body

 Today I woke up early for  a slo flow yoga class. Left the house quietly to have a cup of hot coffee at The Whistle Stop, a small corner diner in the neighborhood. The weather turned abruptly cold and windy. . ..  I walked in, sat at the counter and watched as a couple got up after just finishing their breakfast,. He helped her put her coat on. They looked so comfortable in this routine that flowed in slow motion as if it never stops, like them, perpetually together. She turned and smiled at me. It brought me out of my reverie back around to myself sitting alone. My stomach heaved grief for the love that once helped me put my own coat on, pay the bill and take my hand.  I looked away. Staring into my coffee, I thought about the door that I closed and the light that was still on. But "it's ok", it's ok. I sat awhile longer just accepting this and then I thanked the waitress and left for yoga.

 It is my seventh day of yoga to be exact. I set an intention for this class to FEEL. It is warm in the room this morning, cozy and inviting. We begin in childs pose and take form from there. As I feel my body supporting me, stretching areas that dont stretch easily and observe my minds response, I realize how amazing this body is and give THANKS for the gift of body that I am living and experiencing and sensing so fully. I realize too just how much and how long I have taken this body for granted. Staying grounded in my body is difficult for me. I dont know who I am, just yet; perhaps we are only ever that which we chose to identify with and beyond that we just are. But I notice it is good to feel and be mindful.
 

 Today I am at peace. Genuine, in my body, peaceful and grateful. I left the yoga studio surrounded by a calm stillness into the blustery morning. I covered my head and slowly walked back to the car savoring my morning breath and ....

 Breakfast. I served myself spinach greens and tofu instead of pastries and caffeine. Herbal tea. This is kind. Feeling less like beaten eggs! Saturday, my body. TYG:)